Hope everything comes together for your appointment with the doc.

michael j

I have to tell you: I was really grateful there was an online test to see if I might have it (it doesn’t pretend to diagnose – it just gives you enough info to tell you whether it’s worth your while to see a doctor to see for sure). http://totallyadd.com was a God-send. And it functions as a really good network of those of us who previously thought we were just struggling because of stupidity (ugh) or laziness – only to find that what we thought was a normal process is anything BUT that. There’s a doctor on that site who specializes in the study of it too, who provides some truly objective information.

Anyway – I saw the doctor after posting this, and feel like I’m back on track. Things are running a lot smoother now. :)

Good to see you!!

I remember our meeting, shortly after we discovered each others’ MySpace blogs. I remember understanding instinctively the honesty of your questions, which for me precluded anything related to romance. There was no flirting, there was just raw honesty and curiosity. Open curiosity – I’ll admit it – draws me like nothing else. There is a woman at work who is socially inept, who always says the wrong thing (makes me think she might be a little autistic), but here’s the thing: even in her social awkwardness, she is honest and most importantly – she is curious.

So, when she said to me one time “you’ve gained weight. Why?” I did not – COULD NOT – take offence. It was entirely inappropriate, because we hardly know each other, but I recognized her spirit.

The same applies to you. (Except that you’re anything BUT socially inept, of course). You articulated your intent so clearly, it wasn’t at all hard to see your spirit.

Truth-telling requires a certain sacrifice of the ego, but man is it ever rewarding!

It takes courage to say true things. Vulnerability is heightened because the truth won’t let one hide and yet when someone responds in kind… well, it can lead to the coolest things, like you sitting in that chair across from your instructors girlfriend telling her you want to kiss her. It was a truth that led not to a kiss but a shared moment of REALITY, a slight nakedness.

You are one of my favorite people to talk to precisely because you have no interest in small talk, you face hard questions head on, and you’re unflinchingly honest. You’re also not afraid of silence. Silence is a natural bi-product of truth telling because eventually, sooner rather than later, in the process of pursing truth something is going to be said that requires time to process. Most people feel like they have to fill up the silences; I don’t like that.

I remember taking a deep breath and writing to you when we first met, telling you that I had a mind-crush on you (i.e. my mind likes yours) and wanted to get to know you better. You instinctively knew it wasn’t a come on and you responded in kind with open curiosity and a bit of joyfulness. The memory still makes me smile. And here we are years later, the best of friends all because we started out right from the beginning with truth telling.

So glad you wrote this blog, Wolf. :D

Often I just feel compelled to write, even I have no idea what I want to write about. That’s pretty cool and I generally just run with it when it happens. The downside is that the writing often ends up in a comment on a Facebook post, or in response to an email or something. Not so often does it show up here, in front of the world. That behaviour is certainly no way to stroke my attention-starved ego.

When I moved away from MySpace and was searching for a new blogging community, I tried out blogster, blogger and a few others before landing here. One of the things that kept me away from the one you work with was exactly that: a heightened sense of “morality”, coupled with their seeming willingness to censor anything they found objectionable.

Too bad, really. There’s so much promise with that blogsite and they have to go and ruin it with this nanny mentality (Ok I’ll get off of my soapbox).

You are absolutely welcome to post a random comment any time you like. I’ll subscribe to your blog (probably by posting a link in my blogroll) too. Great to meet you!